There's No One To Be Mad At

You all know I've been sick. A month and a half now. It's insane. I can't keep any food down at all, and believe me I'm trying.

I've been to see so many doctors, so many times in the ER, trying to find what's wrong. No one knows, but we have an idea. Endometriosis. They think that during surgery some endometrium fluid escaped and is making life miserable for me. So we're trying to fix it.

I got a call on Monday. "Yahoo can no longer accommodate this." I lost my job. I've been out for a month and a half and it took them this long to finally lay me off. And they didn't want to.

So I'm still sick, I have pills that make me pass out, I've got no job and no money, I can't have sex cause i'm so isck and goddammit THERE IS NO ONE I CAN YELL AT! The universe has made it so there isn't even ME to be mad at! It's all chance and sucky luck!

Hey...that's it....

I hate you universe.

I am sorry to hear that Gwynn. I hope the doctors find a way to fix you. This just sucks. If you were in Maine I'd have you applying to CSD for a residential manager position..

They're gonna put a camera down my throat on 12/1. Yay -.-

also, I've caught FX's cold >.< I'm now coughing up phlegm on top of everything else, and my voice is gone ;-;

OH FOR FUCKING FUCKS SAKE

I AM NOT BLEEDING AS WELL

FUCKING HELL THIS ISN'T EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE!!!!one11!one!!

*hugs*

I hope you get better soon, Gwynn.

Thanks guys, I'm just so frustrated. It's been a month and a half and I alternate at being pissed off and crying my eyes out. I just don't want to be sick anymore. Before it was just plain pain and exhaustion. I could deal with that, but this constant vomiting, and now inability to speak is just too much.

And let me tell you. Me dressed up in my mad hatter costume, being sick and crying at 7:30am is a very sad sight. (I was headed to work on Halloween). FX had to laugh it was so sad lol

The same thing happened to me. I was bedridden for 2 months with severe nausea and vomiting. I never found out what it was and it eventually went away on its own.

If it gets any worse, if I were you, I would go to the nearest emergency room and insist on being admitted to the hospital until they find out what is wrong.

I hope you are better soon.