I don't know how to fix me. I don't know how to stop feeling so frustrated and stupid and ignorant all the fucking time, I don't know how to explain this to people without making them feel blamed for the way my brain interprets things, and I don't know how the fuck to explain that yes, it IS fucking upsetting to have them just leave me be while I cry my fucking eyes out and then be all happy cheerful life-is-great when I finally calm down. I mean, enough fucking encouragement to just bottle up my bad feelings or what?